In Your Arms

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Being in your arms

Melts my uncertainties

The anguish no longer exists

I feel our love for one another.

In your arms

Being held tight in your arms

I cannot imagine being anywhere else

I could lay in your arms for all of eternity.

You lift my spirits higher than the stars in the sky

You show me that I am yours

And you are mine

Forever until the end of time.

You keep my mind from wondering into the darkness

Everything in my past

With you can all be the past

I know I can trust you to find me when I am lost.

When I am in your arms it seems as if

Our hearts beat as one

Creating closeness, passion, and desire

For the new journey be have begun.

All I need

Is you

Knowing you will always be there

This is my fairy-tale

You are my knight in shining armor.

I love it when you whisper

Good Night Beautiful

Say your prayers

Sweet Dreams

I love you.

Kisses full of love

Your lips touching mine

A passion that only we can share

As our hearts unite.

I love the love we have

It’s like nothing in this world.

Embracing our love

I felt it in my heart

I will feel it forever.

I know that I want you by my side

I no longer have to build walls

Wear masks

Or hide from the emotion.

Love

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There are times within a relationship that the two individuals are in disagreement. There are misinterpretations between the two. One may say something that is perceived differently than intended. One may speak out of rashness.

The past four and a half weeks have certainly not been easy, but I wouldn’t give them up for anything in this world. We have discovered that we can communicate. It is nothing short of wonderful when you can communicate through difficult situations with the one you love. We’ve learned that we both have issues to overcome. We have a past, a present, and a future. We need to treat the past as it is, the past. We need to live in the present. We must look forward to the future wherever it takes us. To me, as long as we are together then that is all that matters to me. I have discovered that I have a drive, a drive that will benefit us both in the future. I have always known your drive and though you may have occasionally questioned your drive I know that it is there. I know you are going to do great things.

Your love is the best thing that has happened to me. It has given me life. You have helped me discover so much about myself and who I am and what I want from life. Sometimes I questions which of us knows me better, you or I. When we are together it all feels so natural, so perfect, so right. When we are together I know that I am with the one who makes my life complete. I miss being with you when we are apart. I need you in each of my tomorrows. So many of my smiles depend on you, that glimpse from across the room, the feeling of your fingers sliding across my cheek, your lips pressed upon my forehead, or waking up next to you each morning. I will forever be standing right here. I know that we can make our dreams come true. Together we can and will do big things.

i carry your heart with me
By e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Love

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There are times within a relationship that the two individuals are in disagreement. There are misinterpretations between the two. One may say something that is perceived differently than intended. One may speak out of rashness.

The past four and a half weeks have certainly not been easy, but I wouldn’t give them up for anything in this world. We have discovered that we can communicate. It is nothing short of wonderful when you can communicate through difficult situations with the one you love. We’ve learned that we both have issues to overcome. We have a past, a present, and a future. We need to treat the past as it is, the past. We need to live in the present. We must look forward to the future wherever it takes us. To me, as long as we are together then that is all that matters to me. I have discovered that I have a drive, a drive that will benefit us both in the future. I have always known your drive and though you may have occasionally questioned your drive I know that it is there. I know you are going to do great things.

Your love is the best thing that has happened to me. It has given me life. You have helped me discover so much about myself and who I am and what I want from life. Sometimes I questions which of us knows me better, you or I. When we are together it all feels so natural, so perfect, so right. When we are together I know that I am with the one who makes my life complete. I miss being with you when we are apart. I need you in each of my tomorrows. So many of my smiles depend on you, that glimpse from across the room, the feeling of your fingers sliding across my cheek, your lips pressed upon my forehead, or waking up next to you each morning. I will forever be standing right here. I know that we can make our dreams come true. Together we can and will do big things.

i carry your heart with me
By e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

And It’s Another Sunday

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We talked.

We talked about us.

We talked about the future.

The future together.

We talked about shouting it from the mountain tops that we were in love.

We wanted to always be together.

We talked to my parents about my faults in our marriage.

They accepted him, even went as far as to invite us to Las Vegas with them later this year.

They told us it wasn’t impossible, that if we wanted to work it out then we could and would.

We talked about the competition, about how I was the one he wanted back stage with him.

The one who knew him during his preps.

We talked about Mexico.

We talked about a family vacation.

We talked about living together.

We talked about marriage.

He even has my wedding ring sitting beside his on his nightstand.

We talked about knowing times weren’t always going to be easy.

I have fully excepted that things were not going to be immediately like they were. I knew that there were going to moments of anger, doubt, and insecurity, but I committed to myself to continue working on me in order to be the best wife, mother, friend, and companion. I have no intention on stopping that.

I sit here an empty shell.

Not certain what to make of anything.

Do I pick up my things from his house risking him thinking that I am giving up, throwing the towel in? Because that is not the conclusion that I want him to come to. Do I pick up my things from his house and give him time? I am sure that this is the right thing to do, but the thought, the thought alone kills me.

The past week, for me, was magical. I felt as though we had never connected in such a way. I was certain that we were going to again be our family. I can’t even express the unbearable pain that I feel right now.

Perhaps I deserve this.

Life Lesson

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Life has taught me that love does not only consist of gazing into my lovers eyes, but also in looking outward together in the same direction.

As I drove away from his house this morning in route to celebrate with my mom’s last of many, many chemo treatments over the past 12 months it hit me like a ton of bricks. I could not imagine living this life without him. He has been there through so many difficult times in my life. And for each of those difficult times there have been glorious times in our relationship. He held me in April of 2004 when my grandmother passed away. Just a few short months later in September, I became Mrs. Jerry Greer Jr. When I went through several months of counseling for the abuse, you were constantly by my side. You did what I needed you to do, you pushed when I needed to be pushed and held me when I saw no hope. In January 2013 I received a call from my mom, although she didn’t want to tell me over the phone I pulled it out of her, she had breast cancer. You held me so tightly and assured me that everything would be fine. In April of the same year we vacationed in Puerto Vallarta and when I began to become upset because I wasn’t going to be there for mom when she had her treatment you offered to get me a flight home to be with her on Thursday morning for her treatment. When I said we were done, you didn’t give up hope. You struggled and you coped, but you never gave up on me. Those are only a few examples of the times when he stood unwavering by my side.

I will never forgive myself for what I did to you or our relationship. I will always keep it in my mind and my heart to make myself better for you, for me, for us, for our family. You truly deserve a woman who adores you. You deserve someone who dotes over you. I want to show you each and every single day how much you mean to me. I want you to be proud that you and I are together. I want you to be delighted to have me on your arm. I want to be your cheerleader, your supporter, your best friend, your partner, your rock, your everything. I want you to know that you are my best friend, my rock, my hero, and my everything.

I cannot wait to spend forever with you. I don’t care if it is as your girlfriend, fiancé, or wife. If I am by your side I will forever be happy. I love you so very much. Thank you for everything that you have ever done for me and every time you have stood by my side when times were not ideal. I will never be able to fully express how much you mean to me.

Flutter

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There is someone so special in my life.
They, without even knowing it, take my breath away.

With only a wink you can make my heart flutter.
I can see you now, standing across the room winking at me with a look in your eyes like you are in love.
With a smile I know how you feel.
Your smile can light up my life.
When you wrap your arms around me I feel secure.
There is nothing in this world that can take that feeling away from me.
You touch me so gently and I go weak.
Whether it is on the cheek, hand, leg, or arm you make me go weak just by a caring touch.
You kiss me and I feel a fire burning inside.
I feel how much I love you and how much you mean to me.

I love you with all of my being. I will give you my all.